Show Me Who You Are

As often when a post starts formulating in my mind, I search for a quote to go with it. Words begin to swim like a beautiful disaster that I can't quite pinpoint...the picture I want to make stays as individual colors on a palate next to a blank canvas that I can't quite begin. At … Continue reading Show Me Who You Are →

Mental Power

I'm still waiting for a moment...an epiphany. A point in time that's going to come when it all makes sense. When all of the lessons I am supposed to learn will be obvious, when the things I crave and desire will be right in front of me instead of floating in an abyss far away. … Continue reading Mental Power →

The Great Divide

Once upon a time, many years ago, there was a little girl. And inside of herself, she knew that she was great, and she was strong, and she was smarter and more creative than most people. This was reinforced to her verbally, by her parents and other adults, but the world at large told a … Continue reading The Great Divide →

The Simple Answer

It becomes apparent, when dealing with a narcissist--whether married, divorced, related...whatever--that there are certain themes that resonate. Certain pieces of scenery along the journey seem to come up again and again, as if walking down a path and experiencing deja vu with a dose of Alice in Wonderland. After all, narcissists are mad and sometimes, … Continue reading The Simple Answer →

Safe

Well folks, after a long hiatus of thinking I know what the hell I'm doing, I'm back in therapy. And by "back in therapy" I mean I spent one hour with a therapist under the intention of trying to learn how to parent my children, who are struggling thanks to PC and his diabolical ways. … Continue reading Safe →

The Battle of Good and Evil

Story of my life. When it comes down to it, when you think in the infinitesimal way one thinks when one contemplates their own space in the universe...when it comes down to it, isn't that what life really is? Almost like it's a game that cannot be won, and every aspect of life comes down … Continue reading The Battle of Good and Evil →

My Internal Compass

Once in awhile, you read something that resonates in a core sense. In a way that clicks as though you could have written the words yourself: details could be switched out and circumstances may not be identical but the feelings, the emotions, the timeline, the abuse. It all lines up like a parallel to your … Continue reading My Internal Compass →

Trust the Path

Last night was a bittersweet evening. One that was full of warmth and laughter, full of emotion, full of power. In what seemed like a whirlwind, a dear friend had just announced a week ago that she and her family would be moving across the country. So, as is par for the course, the girls … Continue reading Trust the Path →

The Magic of Milestones and the Moon

Once in a great while, you stop for a minute and realize that just like that, everything has changed. I’m not sure what happened. I didn’t hit a breaking point. I didn’t have a miraculous win. I haven’t had closure or absolution and unfortunately, I am still a long way away from being divorced. I … Continue reading The Magic of Milestones and the Moon →

Running the Gauntlet

I would not say I'm in the aftermath just yet...but rather treading water just before the final gauntlet. The hurdles behind me are numbered and painful, and ahead of me is the biggest one, yet, beyond that, peace is visible. Its closer and more defined than when I look back into the past. Things about … Continue reading Running the Gauntlet →